I remember when I re committed to God, and was attending a denominational church reflecting on the experience and feeling like it wasn’t enough. As I prayed, I realized that I had to come to terms with the idea that God may call me somewhere else to worship. This could mean giving up what I always thought was the only way. I recognized through this process that there is not really a “one way” in terms of worshiping and drawing closer to God. He did in fact call me to worship at a non denominational Christian church, and so I went to experience what would be a new awakening for me. I enjoyed this new church more then I ever thought that I would, and realized that it is okay to step outside of what I know if it is in fact what God is asking me to do.
God will ask us to do lots of things that we never thought we would do, but I have found that the unknown has led me to new experiences that are real and life fulfilling. It is not about living life one way or staying in the same spot because we think it is what we are supposed to do. It is more about being open to the idea that God has new possibilities that we would never before have considered. If what we already knew worked out to a divine plan with growth and prosperity, then we wouldn’t need God to lift us higher. His ways are higher and in the long run lead to more successes and deeper fulfilment.
The difference is that what I knew led me to an emotional plateau and what God had for me led to spiritual and emotional feelings that had not yet come to the surface of my heart. Once I trusted him and experienced this new church it made me realize that my potential with God is far greater then my own plan for my life. Don’t be afraid to trust the direction he leads you in.
I sit here on my front porch writing this book watching the cars go by. I am living in Ohio with my wonderful husband, surrounded by family, and finally happy with my job and life situation. As I reflect I can’t help but wonder to myself, “How did I get here?” Oh yeah…I gave up on my own plans and found God. It dawns on me that everything I have including my happiness I didn’t achieve on my own. In fact I didn’t get here on my own. I didn’t fall in love completely on my own, drive the car I have on my own, and get my job on my own. It is all the result of two people coming together to create my best life. God and I. Don’t get me wrong my husband fits in there quite nicely. It is amazing for me to think about all that
God has done for me in recent years. It brings me to a place of total gratitude and confidence in my future. A place I wouldn’t have made it to without God. A place where I now need to sit, rest, and just enjoy all that he has given me. I don’t need to keep wanting, pursuing, or reaching for the unattainable. I have already achieved it with his control. I have learned things I never knew, I have developed friendships I wouldn’t have had, and all for just listening, trusting and following the Lord no matter what the cost.